Holding Patterns

We are still in wait mode.  After some initial preparations that would have been difficult to do last minute (like car seat, bassinet, and pediatrician consult), we find ourselves with so much to do yet hesitant to do any of it.  Other than buying some baby clothes, we will get whatever else we need after the baby is born -- in part because we need to see sizes, but also so that if something goes wrong we don't have to go through the pain of bringing home a carful of unused things.  We find ourselves hanging onto every little text from the agency, yet those texts don't come that often.  Today we did learn that the expectant mother has not been in touch for a few days.  We were assured that this happens and that the agency is well-versed in these situations.  We also received a valuable reminder that our view is very different than the mama's view.  The adoption is constantly on our minds; we think about it as we go to sleep, we wake up wondering if anything new will come that day, and it's hard to find a distraction.  On the other hand, the expectant mother is living her life and facing all of her other stressors.  She has so many other things on her mind that the adoption likely won't weigh on her until she actually has the baby.  

The perspective was appreciated.  It is hard to just think of something else, but it does provide a little assurance that lack of updates is not immediately cause for dread.  Of course we are worried for the expectant mother and are concerned that she has fallen out of touch, but we also know she has support in her corner looking out for her.  As helpless as we feel from so far away, all we can do right now is try to stay positive....and keep on waiting.  We waited this long, right?  What's a little bit longer?